Inside My Head

Would you run
would you hide
if i said i loved you
would you be scared inside?
Would you feel relief
would you feel so sad
would everything seem to be so bad
if i said i loved you would your emotions flood if i said i loved you would you want to die? i said i would leave it but i never can
i said i wouldnt care but i do
i said i didnt need you but i crave you
you are the drug that sustains me, you are the idiot that i adore you are the last card on the table that i need but cant reach
you are what i despise and what i need
i'll never forget what we had but i know i need to go away, ignore what we had and what i feel
i havent seen you around yet but its inevitable, do we agree?
we are so close yet so far away
i can categorically say I HATE YOU but i have no belief in myself
i cant believe i still put myself through this
i know someone who saw you. together
all over each other
i almost cried
but i hold it in
you know you gotta count to 10 these days before you kill
keep composure
we heard that song
you played it
the next day i found out
the person sitting next to me
was with you now
and i hated that idea
but you know my ramblings make sense somewhere
i'm leaving it now - i'll try to

Such a young age of 16!!! you've gone through so much...
Amazing write tho as always
Kate xxx