For SE :)

i'd done everything i'd wanted to
and adored it all much
i was only 11
but i'd travelled and learnt a lot
then you slipped from my clutch

i lost you among the angels
you grew tiny wings and flew
and i wish oh how i wish
i had just one more day with you
my love of life you took and all my imagination too
now i hardly remember the best friend and the grandad that i once knew

i try and try and think and think
but still i draw a blank on everything
i can't remember all the small things
you used to say or do

i cant remember you saying
i love you
you must of done, of that im sure
yet still i cant remember anymore
i cant remember your laugh
i have to be reminded
i cant remember you well

i cant remeber that lovely smell
of the grandads that i've heard kids tell
all i know is that i had a grandad once
and i lost him to the angels

i was so young
i wasn't sure where you had gone
i knew something was up
when i heard the phone start to ring
although i knew then
it took till the next morning to hurt
now i just regret not saying one last word
i used to hold it against them
for not letting me go
now i realise
but back then i couldn't understand
i just wanted to be there
i wouldn't cry i promised
i just wanted to hold your hand

i think back all these years
and how i felt back then
yes it's took me this long to know
that you weren't going to show up again
once or twice
i almost looked round and asked
"nan, wheres grandad?"
but i had to stop myself
i couldn't say that
even a wrong look and people around me
were reduced to tears
i never understood it
how they could cry so much
and i used to think i was heartless
that i couldn't of cared that much
that i couldn't just let it out
no one could understand why i kept quiet
they didn't know that instead my head was a riot
i didn't know what
to say or do
all i needed was a answer
a guiding hand from you
now after all these years, through all the tears and all the pain
i know full well
i wont ask if i can go
i couldn't stand the pain

Damn..Crieky...I remember that day when you told me but here it is, in your own words from your heart.
Hugs sweetie
Kate xxxx