Controller

you make me want to scream
to lose all self control
but i have to stop and breathe
lean my head back and relax
i couldn't do that to him
hurt him beyond repair
even though he ripped me up
i'm ashamed to say i still care...

he made me believe
to think
to say and dream
that this world was an amazing place
so un-ending...
so serene
and still
oh still
i consider the facts
and dreams
that i once had
that i once believed
that lie tattered at my feet

i couldn't believe when i heard
i couldn't stop the pain
i swear i heard my heart prepare
screaming shut down
shut down
...shut down

i wanted to scream and hide
but i was cursed to sit and pretend
i was among family
among people that actually cared
so i held in
for once was strong
while i broke inside
i wished they were wrong

all i remembered...
one last hug
one last kiss
complaints
jealously
promising i would change
knowing i couldn't

i wasn't suprised to lose you really
i just didn't think it would be to her
now i've learnt not to always take
books for what's on the cover.

BRAVO!!!!!
Awesome work. Your words just flowed and truely amazing.
Well done!
Kate xxx